I got a little done today. I managed to call a few relatives to let them know about Dad and I called his pastor and left him a message. I want him to preside over the funeral. Emotionally I am shaky. I have not cried over Dad's passing and I have not felt devastated by it. The only time I became emotional though came after I saw the well wishes from people.
My office wife was able to get me the number for the acting boss of the office. My dealings with my immediate supervisor made it impossible for me to talk to her. She and the actual boss made my life miserable and created obstacles for me whenever they could. They will of course say that they made family leave available but truth be told they hindered me with leave restrictions and never offered me accommodations with my time.
ANYWAY, I spoke to the acting boss and told him about the situation and he was so compassionate. I was so used to the shady activity of the usual folks I was not prepared for someone who actually sounded like he cared. About three of my friends at work were told including my office wife. Within minutes she BBM'd me with condolences from a few co-workers. That's when I lost it. Tears streaming down my face. It was almost like I felt vindicated or something. Folks would ask about how dad was but I never fully realized that I worked with decent human beings (just this moment I got another email from a friend who told me about email circulated by the acting chief that was really nice and that is touching me). I remember while I was going through my hearings at work, co-workers who were never told about the hearings by me were wishing me good luck. I had to FIGHT in that office for my job simply because I chose my father over my job. I found out later how much I was respected by my peers because of that. Though people could never do anything about my situation or even defend me a few actually quietly wished me well and in some cases said a prayer for me. I cannot say how much this is touching me. I am crying even as I write this.
The texts came in and office wifey sent the condolences of five people. I got a couple of very nice emails including that immediate supervisor who gave me grief (I can only assume it was a nice email since I have yet to open it).
Part of the situation is I have grown used to working in a hostile environment, so the kindness caught me off guard. Don't get me wrong.....most of the people who work there are good people. It's just that there has been so much evil from the higher levels I forgot.
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